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[10 May 2005|04:10pm] i haven't updated in a really long time, but i'm going to try to do it a lot more. i think that writing in a journal will help me out a lot, because i need an outlet for all of my repressed anger. lol. i sounded smart. stefani called me yesterday, and it was awesome. i miss talking to her so much. i miss our sleepovers..and "boys of summer" blaring while jumping around on her bed in our bathing suits. and i even miss all of the stupid shit she got me into while she lived here. it made me a stronger person. so while on the phone, we talked, and had a sing a long, and i told her how good the most recent drawings she sent me were. she did this one, of the beach... ...which i adore. I'm going to frame it and hang it on my wall. It's too bad she had to fold it to mail it to me. Tis beautiful. Hmm..this should be a Steffy Showcase of artwork! Becuase also on my wall, I have the picture of a puppy she painted like..3 and 1/2 years ago... Aww..tis a dog just like Malibu. [[That would be her puppys name lol..btw steff, your lil puppy is a biiiig doggie now. hah!] Yeah. So..basically, talking to her was very nice. I hope she gets to visit this summer. Now im off to hang out with Kent. Things are looking better between us.......finally. :-) **Farrzie** 1 Bled Honesty?

[07 Dec 2004|05:55pm] So, Stefani and I still haven't really spoken since the night when I got a little carried away with mentioning certain things. (I didn't mean anything bad when I said you dated Joel. Come on..how many people can say they dated someone who got famous?) It's not fun. I miss our long telephone conversations, and her insane randomness. I guess I'm just trying to say I'm sorry. Sorry TJ. I love you. I shouldn't have gotten so wrapped up in stupidity. ♥ to my Cali. Honesty?

[01 Nov 2004|07:19pm] Random thinking-- It hurts me, and makes me incredibly happy at the same time to think that someone can make my bestfriend as happy as they are. It hurts me, and makes me incredibly happy at the same time to think that she can move on from the memories (but still keep them with her 24/7). It hurts me, and makes me incredibly happy at the same time, to see that just because she is young, dosen't mean she hasn't fallen in love; because she has, and it's real. Very real. It hurts me, and makes me incredibly happy at the same time, that my "little sister", has grown up faster then I have, matured faster then I have, been through so much more than I have, lived so much more than I have, and still be so innocent. The most brilliant thing I think I have ever heard: "Just remember, it's gonna end up like this..a guy you love will make you cry, the guy you end up falling in love with will see you cry, take you in his arms, and cry with you." --Steff That's all folks. 1 Bled Honesty?

[30 Oct 2004|09:36pm] So, I haven't updated in FOREVER. why i'm doing it now? well, i'm not entirely sure. maybe to let a certain adorable blonde girl...*cough* Stefani..Steff..TJ..Malibu..Cali..Boo..and many more *cough* that I love her to pieces and I don't like seeing her get depressed? Hmm, that could be it. So now (pardon my loserness), a few words.. Steff- I love you so much babygirl. I hate seeing you as upset as you have been in the last few weeks. I know that you have a few things on your mind, so its understandable. But i don't like it when you say your a weak person. You are the farthest thing from weak. DO YOU NOT REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH? DO YOU NOT REALIZE THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE 30 YEARS OLDER THEN YOU WHO HAVE NEVER AND WILL NEVER EXPERIENCE SOME OF THE HARDSHIPS YOU HAVE FACED..AND OVERCAME?! Do you not remember that it was YOU who held Dylan's stepbrother while he fucking bled to death? You barely even knew him, and you sat in the middle of a dark alley, in fucking los angeles at night, and put his head in your lap, and talked to him, and held him. how could ANY weak person do that? and there are so many more things that i'm not going to mention that prove just how strong you are. I miss you so much sweetie. Just thinking about all of the old times.....looking at all of the old pictures......watching all of the old videos (espically the one of you dressed like gwen stefani at that talent show, singing damn well).....makes me miss you even more. we've had so many good times, and now we're growing up, and your across the country, and it's sad. I hope you realize that even though you are across the country, you have been the EPITOME of a bestfriend to me. Despite the distance, you have always found a way to be here for me...whether it's paying freakishly high phone bills, or finding some way to get on a plane. you've done it all, and i love you so much for that. So cheer up babe. I hate seeing someone as beautiful, talented, strong, and just plain AMAZING in such a state of self-hate. Remember.....I love you, Jay loves you, Ashton loves you...fuck...most of California loves you; and I know your friends in Maryland love you too. And I definitely know that Rob loves you. Afterall, I did approve. ;) Take care of yourself Blondie. I LOVE YOU! WCL4L. FARRZIE AND TJ! ok, i'm done now. :) Honesty?

Look, I'm actually posting! [13 Aug 2004|08:58am] [ mood | content ] well, good morning. i am bored, and decided to actually make a post in this livejournal. i've only been using it to leave comments on other peoples livejournals, but i've decided that since i have nothing better to do, i should write in it. nothing much has been going on. i'm going to try to hang out with nick today, since jay and ashton are both busy for the next few days, which kinda sucks. >< blah. oh well. i'll live i suppose. i'm listening to No Doubt right now, and it reminds me of my BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD..Stefani Jane Reger. (xoxo girl) Not only does she LOOK like Gwen Stefani, but she sings like her as well. Lucky lucky girl she is. I miss her bunches. I wish she would just....come home, back to California. HEY. THATS A SONG. wow farr..way to get off track. so yeah, i guess thats all. ~*Farrah*~ Honesty?

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